Isolation + Acceptance: My Relationship With the 12th House
This year's Solar Return chart of mine echoes 12th house themes. And I kid you not, my first response to that was: I have been living in perpetual isolation for a long time—how much more isolated can I be?
Well, it turns out during the recent retrograde and eclipse season, I got into a bit of a tense and muddled situation with my best friend of over 10+ years. Neptune entered Aries too—forcing me to come to terms with reality. It was also Uranus squaring my 7th house, threatening to disrupt my key relationships.
And that's the thing about astrology: it's accurate and it's beautiful and yet, it also sucks.
There's the part of our lives where we have full control over, and then there's this other part where we don't, and we leave the latter part to fate.
But here comes the surprising thing: I have accepted it. I have accepted that this season of mine is for me to come into being, to not look to others, even a single person, for comfort and support. And if the other person does not think that I deserve that, then that's their opinion. Despite years of knowing each other, you cannot guarantee that that person sees you for who you truly are.
You can beg and cry and say "see me, know me, and acknowledge me", and it would still be a waste of time, because it's NOT that season for you.
And I have accepted that there are seasons in my life where the people closest to me will not see me for who I really am and what the situation truly is. And it is not for me to decide.